I remember it as if it were yesterday. I was standing in the kitchen at work getting ready to walk into the board room. It was Thursday lunch, and it was about time for Bible study. Except, Chad was here, and Bible study today was going to be our first time presenting our future work in Spain. I knew it was silly to be nervous. These ladies were dear friends of mine. They were supportive and excited. Yet, I couldn’t stop the butterflies from filling my stomach and the sweat from lining my palms. I gave myself a pep talk, “Okay, Julie, steady breaths. You can do this. This is about God–not you, and this is about obedience. You are only here, right now, doing this because God told you to do so.”
When I was a little girl, I was in a music program at our church. All the songs that we sang were memory verses. I sang a duet of John 14:21 with my friend, Kristen. I still remember the song. “Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him. John 14:21 Hey!”
It’s about obedience. I want to see God. I want to know Him and to walk intimately with Him, and I want Him to use my life for His plan. So, I go, I follow, I fight for faith, I obey. At least, I try.
This past month, we have reviewed this lesson again. There is so much out of our control. Sometimes, it feels like there’s so little we can do. At times, it even feels like we are doing nothing of value. But, that’s not true. We are seeking to obey. We live where we live, we do what we do, we fight, doubt, struggle, and cry, and we get back up again and do it the next day because God has told us to do so. And, that is where peace comes in. I don’t have to worry about all that is out of my control. I worry about me and seek to obey the One who has the whole plan.